Happy Birthday to ma blog!!!....

Hmmm...... Happy Birthday to my blog!!!!!!.....

Sounds weird huh??... wishing a blog..... but hey.. who cares.....

So.. its been one year since i opened this blog.... One whole year!!!!!...... n in this time..... i haven't really written anything here...... at least nothing worthwhile......

My sole purpose for opening this blog was to THINK ALOUD.... coz i hav always had sooo much to say.... but haven't ever said anything aloud.. atleast not wen it counts.. writing it always seemed it easier than saying it aloud.....
I needed a place to vent my thoughts.... a sounding board(or a writing board to be precise...)
I hav never been the one to talk about myself to ppl... hey.. not because m so modest or a saint tat i don't want ppl to be disturbed by my problems.... It was the sheer fear of being laughed at.. embarrassed... or simply d fear of being considered a whiner...
Even now if u ask me.. wat is my problem.... i wudn't hav an answer...
Sounds stupid huh???... yesh it is.... so.. i thought maybe i cant say wat i feel.. wat i think... maybe i can write it down......
But, something still holds me back.. even from writing it down..... maybe its sheer laziness.....
nah!!!.... i can write pages n pages... widout making any sense at all....
So.. if not laziness then wat... Maybe, the same fear... fear of not being understood....
or most importantly the fear of being misunderstood....

FEAR!!!!!..... i truly hate tat word..... i mean i fear the word fear.... coz i fear so many things..... but the biggest fear..... is of not being needed.. needed by ppl... u so desperately need...

Nyways.. m going off topic here.. See!!!!.. i tend to write too much widout making any sense at all.....

the purpose of this post is not just to wish my blog A Very Happy Birthday!!!!(happy??.. hmm.. hav to think about it....)
But also, to try to overcome my fears.. n hesitations in thinking aloud..... Yes... m gonna write watever crap i can come up wid.. watever i think... watever i feel.... regardless of the accceptance for it!!!...

So here's three cheers to thinking aloud!!!..... finallly!!!!.... better late than never........

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